Short little run by temporallobe at Garmin Connect - Details

Short little run by temporallobe at Garmin Connect - Details

Nice and sunny out today. The air was a little windy with a nice smell of salt in it.

It felt so good to be out and moving again. I hit the gym after a short warm up. Feeling good I then decided to go for a brief little run.

I have had a sever chest cold the past 5 days or so on top of some other frustrations. Running always gives me clarity.

I wanted to express that one of the reasons I post is because this is how I feel. I am not going to be politically correct, I am not going try and soften the blow, I am not going to pretend things are ok when they are not.

I also know that a result of my brain damage my brain does not process emotions, sensations, thoughts, feelings, expressions in a way I can control. I am working on it. However I sustained a sever brain injury. This is not going to change because "I will it to".

Running across the country I met so many people who were facing similar situations that I was. As a survivor of a brain injury my defense mechanism on the confusion of ever day life and my inability to process like I used is to withdraw. If I feel that way, then others must as well.

However if I withdraw, if I step back, if I slow down, I will not move forward. It is a very slippery slope to fall within yourself. Justified or not.

So I share my experiences, my challenges, my thoughts, my failures and my successes because they are real to me. This is my reality. It is not the reality I wish I was, or the reality I want to be, it simply just is.

If I did not believe there was purpose, if I did not believe there was level off attainment I may reach, then I would be very worried.

I want others to know this as well. It's going to suck, it's going to be really hard, it is going to be unfair, and you are going to suffer unfairly. This is a reality. However there is optimism. I have seen it, I have felt it, I have achieved it. It's a fleeting thing optimism. It's a tease and it's constantly disappearing with the challenges we face. However it is attainable. Whatever that looks for you, or for me. I believe in that.

Doesn't take away the hurt, doesn't take away the frustration, doesn't take away the unfairness, but it is attainable.

Don't give up or give in, don't settle, and don't stop. Because someone else has it worse of than you, and no one deserves what we go through.